I have been super busy with work that I just come home really tired to even post something meaningful on my blog. Today I have the opportunity to finally post something.
Life moves me like a rollercoaster up and down, making me feel like life is not how I expected it to be when I was younger. When I was younger life seemed so simple and easy that it felt like if nothing in this world could hurt me. As I grew older, it got complicated every time. I was afraid more often and anxious, shy, and nervous all the time. I was also less self-confident in myself.
Today that I am 25 and almost turning 26, I look back often into my past while growing up in Orange County and think to myself. I have gone through so much difficulties and challenges in my life that I feel like life is one big rollercoaster full of challenges.
Every day I am learning to not to worry too much, to love myself as I truly am, and to embrace life’s challenges and difficulties in a positive way.
Lately I have been liking sunflowers because they exude happiness, sunshine,and warmth all around. 🌻🌻🌻☮️🙂🙂🌻🌻🌻
Hello Everyone 🙂
Here are my gold stars which are the little things that make me feel better. ⭐⭐⭐
- Eating ice-cream
- Going for a walk outside
- Seeing the sunshine on a beautiful day
- Reading a good book
- Going to a bookstore or a library
- Drawing mandalas
- Listen to a good song
- Cuddle with my boyfriend
- Eat good food
What are your gold stars? You are welcome to share on the comments below, thanks. ☺️
Hello Everyone ☺️
I have lately been nostalgic about my teen years. I guess being 25 years-old makes me want to reminiscing about my years growing up in Orange County.
Whenever I think about my teenage years, I think of the two things that I learned, the first is having self-confidence in my physical image, and in my own self that I can accomplish my own dreams and goals. Then the second one is not letting other people’s negative comments and opinions about me bring me down.
In high school I would often tell my parents that I wanted to be an actress and be on movies, and television shows; they thought I was just in a phase of dreaming big and not thinking realistically in choosing a career. But I honestly did want to study acting and be a professional. I took two years of theatre in my sophomore and senior year of high school to prove my parents that I seriously wanted to study acting as a career and job, but I made the huge mistake and regret of letting my mom tell me not to study acting because it wasn’t a realistic career for me to take. I listened to her instead of taking the big risk of going on my own to study acting.
I have learned to not let other people, such as my mom make desicions for me based on what I should do in my life. I have learned to think for myself and what I want to do in my life.
It is important to have the freedom and happiness to choose what career or job we want to do in life, no matter what friends, family, or others say. Loving my true self is important too. Oftentimes in high school and middle school, I would often wish to be good-looking and perfect as other girls in magazines or in my school, but it took me a long time to love, and appreciate my own outer beauty. I have come to love my petite height, my younger-than-my-age physical image, my imperfect nose, and my bushy, frizzy curly black hair. I am done wishing I could be perfect, those days of being miserable about my image are long gone.
Now I love and embrace my imperfect self. 🙂❤️
My soul yearns to love you
A million times more than what
You want to give me.
I love you more than you can imagine,
More than the moon, the enchanting stars
Above us, and the sun that warms me
With a deep love for you.
I only hope and pray that you
Truly see the yearning of love that I
Feel for you.
For now it is worth the risk to yearn for you
There is this cave I found
In the middle of the shining lake
I can see its reflection
Smiling down at me.
Its a cave unlike any other,
I go inside it where there is no darkness,
Where there is no sadness, and coldness
All around me there are images of dreams.
Dreams that make up me and you.
This cave of dreams will never fade,
It will always be here for me, for you.
2017 is here bringing me joy and excitement at what is to come my way. I wait for the coming months.
I wake up with positive energy and good vibes. I want to start anew, make new memories this year, learn new things that I never though I would learn, create new and rewarding experiences, be open to change continuously, and seek new ways to be a better person each day.
Of course, I will struggle along the way, but those struggles will never keep me from flying up high to the mountain of happiness.
Winter magic fills me with endless joy, wonder, and imagination.
I close my eyes and fill the smell of the chilly air with wishes of snow-covered houses. The warmth of my black and white checkered sweater fills me images of cozy warm fireplaces. The simple joy of drinking hot cocoa, making a gingerbread house with a loved one, or listening to Christmas music brings the genuine magic that I crave to bring me up from my gloom.
Walking outside where it is raining, and cloudy I create in my mind the image of a place full of winter magic surrounding me. I may be feeling cold, but I will keep the images of winter magic to keep me warm, and joyful.
I visited the Sundial Bridge which is located in Redding, California. It was me and my boyfriend’s first time seeing the Sundial Bridge, so we went with a fellow friend who guided us around this monument in the evening which made it creepier and scarier than I thought because there were bats flying outside in the cold dark night, and what was more creepy was there were millions of spiders attached to the dark tunnels that we had to walk through on our way to the bridge, I was holding on to dear life my boyfriend’s arm praying that one of them wouldn’t come near me or touch me. Unfortunately, my boyfriend told me that he saw a big spider almost touch my head, but it did not which was a relief, but made me feel paranoid and scared at the same time.
Walking the Sundial Bridge and seeing nature all around me, the stars and the clear night sky with the moon illuminating the lake below us made me feel infinite, and full of joy at the thought of living in a world that is so wondrous, and amazingly beautiful.
I was so proud that I passed my CNA test but more because I knew that I was going to get hired for a job that I was interested in getting also.
It is a CNA job for a long-term care facility and rehab called Marquis Shasta. More than that it meant I would have to move to northern California, in a city named Redding.
I was excited and full of wonderment at what would happen. Yet I felt like my whole life has been changing so much lately that sometimes I feel like I cannot handle these changes happening to me.
I know that change is a great thing to experience, that I should learn to appreciate it, I am slowly little by little.
Hello Everyone, 🙂
This coming week is going to be a big week for me because I will take my state certification test to become a Certified Nurse Assistant, I know that it’s another goal I have in order to get a job and support myself and my family independently.
I is funny of to think that just last year I would tell my twin sister that I was not interested in learning anything that was medical related, because it just never interested me until now.
Taking CNA classes and doing my internship hours at a long-term care facility has opened my eyes to how rewarding a CNA job can be because it means that I am helping people with disabilities and are in rehabilitation, get well and become independent once more.
Helping the senior residents everyday made me feel like I was making a huge difference in their lifes.
I hope and have faith that I will pass both the skills and the written test this coming Saturday. Everyone who reads this please wish me the best of luck, hopefully I do not get so nervous on the day of the test.