Since it is Monday today I decided to simply do a blog post about what I am thankful for. These past few months have been full of ups and Downs that I sometimes tend to keep focusing on the negative moments that I have had more, than on the positive moments that I have experienced. Being thankful is mostly something that we think about in November for Thanksgiving, but I try to think every month what I am thankful for; but honestly I do forget sometimes. So here are five things that I am thankful for:
1. I’m thankful for having a loving boyfriend who loves me for who I am and respects me. It was not a love at first sight, it was more of like a love that happened unexpectedly but in a good way.
2. My family and friends, even though I have not had the chance to go visit my family in Orange County, California, I do miss them a lot. Calling my mom and my twin sister helps though. I also miss my friends a lot and hopefully someday I can see them again.
3. Having a job is another thing that I am thankful for. I used to struggle looking for a job in which I can support myself financially with out relying on my parents a lot. Having a job as a CNA has helped me understand the value of helping others.
4. Loving my unique self and accepting my natural beauty is something that I am truly thankful for because there have been times in my life while growing up that I have felt insecure about myself, and my physical image. I have also struggled with my self-confidence, I used to listen and take to heart what everyone thought about me, to the point that I would let everyone’s negative comments affect me in negative way.
5. Continuing with my higher education is another thing that I am thankful for because coming Mexican immigrant parents, I have learned the value of having an education and working hard towards my dreams and goals is something to be proud of in life. My parents we’re not so fortunate enough to get a college degree because they had to work to provide for themselves and their families so my parents have always instilled me and my siblings to work hard and to never give up on our own dreams and goals no matter how challenging it may seem. I want to have a career in writing, so it is something that I am working on right now, and even though it may seem challenging I do not want to give up in my goal of publishing a novel someday.
I have been super busy with work that I just come home really tired to even post something meaningful on my blog. Today I have the opportunity to finally post something.
Life moves me like a rollercoaster up and down, making me feel like life is not how I expected it to be when I was younger. When I was younger life seemed so simple and easy that it felt like if nothing in this world could hurt me. As I grew older, it got complicated every time. I was afraid more often and anxious, shy, and nervous all the time. I was also less self-confident in myself.
Today that I am 25 and almost turning 26, I look back often into my past while growing up in Orange County and think to myself. I have gone through so much difficulties and challenges in my life that I feel like life is one big rollercoaster full of challenges.
Every day I am learning to not to worry too much, to love myself as I truly am, and to embrace life’s challenges and difficulties in a positive way.
Lately I have been liking sunflowers because they exude happiness, sunshine,and warmth all around. 🌻🌻🌻☮️🙂🙂🌻🌻🌻
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Here are my gold stars which are the little things that make me feel better. ⭐⭐⭐
- Eating ice-cream
- Going for a walk outside
- Seeing the sunshine on a beautiful day
- Reading a good book
- Going to a bookstore or a library
- Drawing mandalas
- Listen to a good song
- Cuddle with my boyfriend
- Eat good food
What are your gold stars? You are welcome to share on the comments below, thanks. ☺️
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I have lately been nostalgic about my teen years. I guess being 25 years-old makes me want to reminiscing about my years growing up in Orange County.
Whenever I think about my teenage years, I think of the two things that I learned, the first is having self-confidence in my physical image, and in my own self that I can accomplish my own dreams and goals. Then the second one is not letting other people’s negative comments and opinions about me bring me down.
In high school I would often tell my parents that I wanted to be an actress and be on movies, and television shows; they thought I was just in a phase of dreaming big and not thinking realistically in choosing a career. But I honestly did want to study acting and be a professional. I took two years of theatre in my sophomore and senior year of high school to prove my parents that I seriously wanted to study acting as a career and job, but I made the huge mistake and regret of letting my mom tell me not to study acting because it wasn’t a realistic career for me to take. I listened to her instead of taking the big risk of going on my own to study acting.
I have learned to not let other people, such as my mom make desicions for me based on what I should do in my life. I have learned to think for myself and what I want to do in my life.
It is important to have the freedom and happiness to choose what career or job we want to do in life, no matter what friends, family, or others say. Loving my true self is important too. Oftentimes in high school and middle school, I would often wish to be good-looking and perfect as other girls in magazines or in my school, but it took me a long time to love, and appreciate my own outer beauty. I have come to love my petite height, my younger-than-my-age physical image, my imperfect nose, and my bushy, frizzy curly black hair. I am done wishing I could be perfect, those days of being miserable about my image are long gone.
Now I love and embrace my imperfect self. 🙂❤️
There is this cave I found
In the middle of the shining lake
I can see its reflection
Smiling down at me.
Its a cave unlike any other,
I go inside it where there is no darkness,
Where there is no sadness, and coldness
All around me there are images of dreams.
Dreams that make up me and you.
This cave of dreams will never fade,
It will always be here for me, for you.
2017 is here bringing me joy and excitement at what is to come my way. I wait for the coming months.
I wake up with positive energy and good vibes. I want to start anew, make new memories this year, learn new things that I never though I would learn, create new and rewarding experiences, be open to change continuously, and seek new ways to be a better person each day.
Of course, I will struggle along the way, but those struggles will never keep me from flying up high to the mountain of happiness.
I visited the Sundial Bridge which is located in Redding, California. It was me and my boyfriend’s first time seeing the Sundial Bridge, so we went with a fellow friend who guided us around this monument in the evening which made it creepier and scarier than I thought because there were bats flying outside in the cold dark night, and what was more creepy was there were millions of spiders attached to the dark tunnels that we had to walk through on our way to the bridge, I was holding on to dear life my boyfriend’s arm praying that one of them wouldn’t come near me or touch me. Unfortunately, my boyfriend told me that he saw a big spider almost touch my head, but it did not which was a relief, but made me feel paranoid and scared at the same time.
Walking the Sundial Bridge and seeing nature all around me, the stars and the clear night sky with the moon illuminating the lake below us made me feel infinite, and full of joy at the thought of living in a world that is so wondrous, and amazingly beautiful.
Ever since I moved to Redding, California I have been learning to get adjusted to the Northern California way of living. The people that reside in Redding are so much different than the people from Southern California.
Lately I have been noticing that mostly all of the majority of the people like country music which makes me think that they might have come from somewhere in the south like Texas, or Arkansas, one thing I have discovered is that there are also people who came from Oregon.
I like Redding because we are surrounded by beautiful nature parks and lakes, and the Shasta mountains also.
Have any of you visited Redding, California?
I was so proud that I passed my CNA test but more because I knew that I was going to get hired for a job that I was interested in getting also.
It is a CNA job for a long-term care facility and rehab called Marquis Shasta. More than that it meant I would have to move to northern California, in a city named Redding.
I was excited and full of wonderment at what would happen. Yet I felt like my whole life has been changing so much lately that sometimes I feel like I cannot handle these changes happening to me.
I know that change is a great thing to experience, that I should learn to appreciate it, I am slowly little by little.
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This coming week is going to be a big week for me because I will take my state certification test to become a Certified Nurse Assistant, I know that it’s another goal I have in order to get a job and support myself and my family independently.
I is funny of to think that just last year I would tell my twin sister that I was not interested in learning anything that was medical related, because it just never interested me until now.
Taking CNA classes and doing my internship hours at a long-term care facility has opened my eyes to how rewarding a CNA job can be because it means that I am helping people with disabilities and are in rehabilitation, get well and become independent once more.
Helping the senior residents everyday made me feel like I was making a huge difference in their lifes.
I hope and have faith that I will pass both the skills and the written test this coming Saturday. Everyone who reads this please wish me the best of luck, hopefully I do not get so nervous on the day of the test.