Monthly Archives: August 2014

My Dream is Shattered

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You might all be wondering why I titled my new post, “My Dreams are Shattered,” well I want to share with you guys a personal experience that I had when I was 15 years old and a Sophomore in high school, well my biggest dream was to be an actress because I always thought that acting out any different character and just being someone else, and reading story scripts was so fun and interesting to me that I did not think about becoming anything else, but an actress. I started taking a theater class in my Sophomore year to start learning the ins and outs of acting and theater. I can truly say that I did gain some valuable acting experience but I was so stubborn, on not realizing that a career in acting was not available for me right now, much less having parents who would not be able to support me financially. I had the wonderful experience of going to an acting and modeling audition that John Casablanca’s did, which is an acting and modeling school. I eventually got called back because the judges told me that I had potential to be an actress, but that I needed to take acting classes in their school in order to get the professional experience that I needed.

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When they explained to my parents about the expensive costs of the classes, my parents quickly explained to me that I couldn’t take go to that school because it was too expensive, and they do not give financial help. Seriously I felt at that moment that my dream went shattering down. I tried convincing that acting is the career I want to do because I was deeply passionate about it, not because I wanted to be famous like Selena Gomez, but because it seemed fun and interesting. Despite my parent’s disapproval of me doing acting as a career I still took theater classes in high school and in college but later on I realized that my parents were right. Acting was just not my career, Jesus Christ has something in store for me much better. I might go back to acting in the future, but for right now I am going to focus on my writing because I know that I can easily do a career right now that is accessible and conveniently available to me right now. I am not going to give up on my life just because I could not realize my big dream of acting. I still like acting, I will see if in the future God brings to me that profession again.

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Reading a small prayer brought me thinking back about that experience I went through, I hope this prayer also helps you find your purpose and profession in life with the help of God.

My Dream is Shattered

To the loving God
Who cares about my dreams:
Bless and restore me.
In my disappointment and
Sadness,
Help me remember
That you have a future full of
Hope for me.
Give me a new dream.
Amen.
-(The Catholic Youth Prayer Book)

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My Sunday Mass Experience

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I always like going to Sunday Church Mass at the beautiful St. Angela Merici church in Brea, California; although I live in La Habra, It still is not far from where I live which is great because eversince I took my first communion and confirmation class when I was 20 years old (yeah did not do it when I was a young girl) I wanted to choose a church were I would belong and feel a part of it, and at the same time grow on my Catholic faith, and Jesus more, so upon discovering the Sunday Mass services at St. Angela Merici, I discovered that the services are so full of joy, hope, and faith. Their music during mass always give me a sence of peace and joy. The speeches from the Deacons always make me think and reflect deeply on my own life, and what I can do to improve the next time.

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I used to think that Sunday Church Masses were rather boring and would make me fall asleep, but now I truly try to focus on the Mass activities and on Jesus because He is the sole reason why I am still living and will not let go off me, no matter what.

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Glitter my Life

Before darkness was my only friend, loneliness always following me.
But when I discovered Jesus as my Savior he filled me with His true love, a love that will never be replaced.
Friends come and go but now I truly know that You will always be watching over me.
I am going to glitter my life because now I believe in Jesus.
He is the Savior the one who rescued me from the darkness, and the never ending sea of loneliness. In Him I have learned to put my struggles, and to trust. Whenever I pray to Him I feel that my life is full of promise and chances to take without fear.

Yes I will glitter my life without fear.

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Got to Let You Go

Sitting in my room,
All alone with nothing else to do
But just think of you.
Everyday the same thing on my mind, don’t know how to take you off my mind.
I still remember the last time you broke my heart.
You broke it into little pieces, until there was no heart but just small broken pieces.
There is no way to fix this damage you have done.
I do not want to hurt myself no more, so I will let you go, I know in time I will let you go.
I used to think that we would last forever, but we will not.
Got to let you go.

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Introducing Me

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My name is Jasmine Pena and I am 23 years old, I hope to use this blog as a way to share with you all of my thoughts, ideas; just a way to express myself and practice my writing since I want to be a writer.
I am right now majoring in Creative Writing with an emphasis in Fiction writing. I want to write novels for young adults and children, hopefully I will publish my own stories. My main goal is to inspire other teens and young adu
lts to turn to writing to express themselves. Many teens turn to negative ways to aliviate their feelings and emotions.
I want to be that beacon of hope for them.
My life has been full of ups and downs. Days were I feel that I just do not have the strength to keep on going but my family, friends, Jesus Christ, and music are the four support systems that keep me going and help me not give up on my dream of writing my own stories.

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me and my twin sister.